How are you?

I drive to Puncak Alam.

I lost in those few days. Yet, i pretend that everything is okay. I want to talk to him, meet him. 

Texted him. 

“Hati2 balik nnt..belum masa nye utk jumpa..i tak ready lg”

Get an ice cream, few sweet things at Family Mart. 

Waiting for 4 hours in hope that he will change his mind. 

Sleep in the car.

Bodoh kan? 

Whore.

 My heart is broken.

It is badly broken that i’m fear it won’t be whole again.  

…

Zara rindu daddy ke? 

Mummy pun. 

Hmm..

Hahaha!

 Our relationship is a joke. 

We can’t move forward.

And he keep complaint. 

How funny it is? 

A miracle

Dear Almighty,

I know that i am not a good servant for you. Wallahi far away from that. 

But i pray hard for this——

I want to be his wife. I want to be only his. 

Look at his eyes every night, kiss his cheek every morning. 

Have a beautiful babies with him. 

Make a beautiful memories.

Be with him through thick and thin. 

Love him, and loved by him day in and day out for the rest of our life. 

Make it easy for him, Ya Allah.

Make it easy for us. 

Make us a good wife and husband; loving spouse who are loved by You. 

I need a miracle. Your only miracle.